I still had no proper sleep, my brain is exhausted, I am exhausted. I feel like I need to sleep very long but I have to wake up early tomorrow for our production management project. I was tired today preparing, researching, finishing stuffs. I feel like I didn’t have time for myself. Then my girlfriend is not feeling well and I can’t do a single thing to even make her feel better and it makes me feel that I suck at being her boyfriend. I feel like no one really deserves me, she doesn’t deserve me because she deserves better but I want to be better and no one is helping me, with all these responsibilities, family problems and stuffs. I don’t know. I’m so unstable in the middle of better and worse, that if I do good, I’m better and if I do bad, I’m worse. Tomorrow’s gonna be a long day and I don’t think I’m ready.